I never got permission for anything in life. That’s because it was a different deal. Those in power here should be in power. Not like on earth. There’s such a lack of kindness on your planet.
Being in an earthly body and looking through physical eyes limits the way you perceive the light. Your eyes can't see the light directly, only the things it shines upon, so the light remains invisible, just like the soul does. That causes a good deal of suffering down there on your planet because it's hard to believe in what you can't see. The light here makes visible what is invisible on earth: the divine nature of all things.